As someone who is still questioning their own identity, this book was very helpful with accepting and loving myself. I’ve been called things that, to this day, still sting, so I very much enjoyed the discussion of different identities that this book brings up. Felix Ever After is probably number one in my list of favorite reads for 2020 (there’s still time for it to be dethroned, but I honestly doubt that will happen).
Warning: this review may contain spoilers…
Here is a little bit about the book:
Felix Love has never been in love—and, yes, he’s painfully aware of the irony. He desperately wants to know what it’s like and why it seems so easy for everyone but him to find someone. What’s worse is that, even though he is proud of his identity, Felix also secretly fears that he’s one marginalization too many—Black, queer, and transgender—to ever get his own happily-ever-after.
When an anonymous student begins sending him transphobic messages—after publicly posting Felix’s deadname alongside images of him before he transitioned—Felix comes up with a plan for revenge. What he didn’t count on: his catfish scenario landing him in a quasi–love triangle….
But as he navigates his complicated feelings, Felix begins a journey of questioning and self-discovery that helps redefine his most important relationship: how he feels about himself.
Felix Ever After is an honest and layered story about identity, falling in love, and recognizing the love you deserve.
There is so much that I loved about this book, that is impossible for me to cover every single thing in this review. From the romance, the self discovery, and the rollercoaster of emotions that I felt while reading this – there was nothing that I disliked about it.
The sort-of love triangle that leads to self-discovery
Felix falls for both his best friend, and his enemy. He misjudges those relationships throughout the novel, and it results in many awkward conversations and a bit of social distancing from the two guys he is crushing on. It forces Felix to rely on himself alone for validation, and it helps him to find out how to love himself. Another thing it helps him with is this “niggling” that persists throughout the novel, which causes Felix to second guess his identity.
One major conflict for Felix is his portfolio, which he struggles to find a theme for. After the temporary loss of his best friend, Felix loses himself in self portraits. The description of each one captivated me, and it honestly brought me to tears to read about how happy Felix felt when he lost himself in his painting.
Don’t get me started on the emotional rollercoaster that is this book…
Felix Ever After will you have you laughing one second and then crying to next. If I could give this book more than five stars, I would. It’s just such a cute romance between Felix and Ezra, and the growth of each character is just so beautiful. I was so happy that Felix was able to really love himself and his identity before he figured out his relationship with Ezra, which I think is an important message to give to the youth. Self confidence is something that I struggled with a lot while growing up, so I think middle school me would have benefited a lot from this book.
Here is my rating:
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